So there I was, in the chip/chocolate aisle in Sobeys, longingly eyeing the Lays chip sale as I was spooning the confetti cake blizzard with Oreo pieces from Dairy Queen into my mouth. This was after pasta from Boston Pizza too (I was supposed to be watching Captain America after the dinner but the screening was full so we got me Dairy Queen as a consolidation prize).
This scene would not have been a reality two to three years ago. For years I’ve been struggling with food and my body. I’ve restricted, I’ve purged, I’ve done things I am not proud of. I rarely speak about it and kept everything a secret. This scene would have probably have been a nightmare for me years ago but today, I am proud that it happened. Sure I’ve had way too many calories today already but you know what, one crazy day of eating, hell even one week, isn’t going to kill me. It has taken me years to accept that but I’m going on record to say that yes, there are still days where I slip up, yes I cry, scream, sulk, and struggle but I’m glad it is no longer a daily occurrence. My body needs food to fuel itself. It needs food so I can run faster, better, and stronger.
This will be a fight that I’ll be winning. And if anyone was wondering, I got Sour Cream and Onion and BBQ Lays
Anything on your mind you feel like unloading today like I did? Feel free to :)