Honestly, my only thoughts on my upcoming half marathon is fear. Fear and disappointment. I had spent the winter base building and it was pretty difficult for me as winter was killing my ITB. Regardless, I survived the winter and moving onto Spring, I was running around 35k a week – which is where I usually peak – and had pretty high hopes for my fall half marathon. I was easily doing sub 60 10k training runs, moving from 6:30min/k to 6:00min/k as my easy pace, and generally feeling pretty good!
However, during late Spring, things started to go downhill. My ITB refused to let up. Shin splints plagued me. It hurt to run more than 4k. However, things had started to look up when I managed to run TYS10K in 55 minutes. Not a PR but progress! But of course, my underlying issues were still there.
ITB pain, shin splints, and a stint with antibiotics ended up putting me at 10k a week. A far cry from 35k. Note – I only run 3 times a week so that’s pretty much 3.3k a run…7k less than what I was used to.
This was with 2ish months to go to race day and I was beyond worried and well, with less than 40 days to go now, I’m just plain scared. I know it won’t be a PR race – at this point, I just want to be able to finish the race itself. I won’t lie and say that it’s all sunshine and butterflies over here as I really am disappointed in myself.
Disappointed that my legs couldn’t perform like they did last year, disappointed that I didn’t go see a physical therapist early (hey – broke student here), and disappointed in myself for feeling so down. There are people out there with worse injuries than myself and they are whining about it less. Rebecca from Running Food Baby had to drop down from the full marathon to the half and she’s not whining!
I guess what I’m trying to say is with less than 40 days to race day, I fear that I won’t be able to run the full distance and I’m disappointed at myself for the pity party. The race will still be there next year and I can always change my goal race as it’s not set in stone.
And before I end this post, I’m going to leave with a quote that I’m going to try to go by for the upcoming weeks that you may find useful for the future. “Can you live in that moment? As best you can, with clear eyes, and love in your heart. With joy in your heart. If you can do that, then you’re perfect.”
How do you cope when things don’t go as planned?