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Time for some Real Talk…

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So I have a confession to make.  My friends know me as the girl who cannot stop eating.  The girl who’s always hungry.  The girl with the gelato.  However, my close friends also know how my relationship is food is a little… crazy and warped (a different post for a different time).  Recently, I’ve gone a little off on the deep end and well, since June I’ve gained 5 pounds (last week was the first time since June that I weighed myself).  I’m 5 foot 2 (5 foot 3 on a good day  hahahaha) so 5 extra pounds is kinda noticeable.  Yes I understand that the number on the scale is really only a number (which is why I stopped weighing myself) but my thighs are a bigger (those Nike Pro Combat shorts do not lie!) and my speed has gone down a bit during my intervals.  Without my lifting at the gym, the surplus of calories are starting to add up.

So what does this mean?  It means I have to get my act together.  I’ve been skipping my meal preps and I’ve been eating out a lot more than I should.  My weakness are chicken nuggets.  Whenever I can’t sleep and I’m hungry at 3 in the morning, the only place opened is the McDonald 24hr drive through and I’ve been happily going there for my midnight snack.

chicken nuggets

It’s easy to blame my busy student life during the semester because I forget to eat and skipping meals while I’m in class (who schedule classes at 6!? I’m not hungry enough to eat at 4/5 but at 6, I’m starving!) but now that I’m off for the summer, I should have no excuse.  So why am I tell you all this?  Well if I blog about it, there’s a waaaay better chance that I’ll hold myself more accountable!  I’m a little embarrassed actually – what kind of runner survives off a diet of chicken nuggets at 3am?!  Haha.  So starting today, I’m going to try and clean up my diet (I’m shedding a tear over the gelato that’s for sure) and I’m going to try and eat “junk” only in moderation (because what is the point of I can’t have gelato every once in a while?).  Well now that’s off my chest… today is actually my course selection for the fall semester so please cross your fingers and toes for me that I get into all the classes I want!


So tell me, you got any confessions lately you want to get off your chest?  Do you miss your old metabolism like I do? haha


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18 thoughts on “Time for some Real Talk…

  1. I find that I do best when I cook my own meals. Not necessarily meal-prepping, like I don’t cook all my meals for the week on one day, but I will make a dinner and then eat leftovers for the next few days. When those run out, I make something else. At the beginning of May after a semester of eating out or having cafeteria food every day, I weighed 156 on good days (I’m 5’8″) and now I weigh 147 on good days. I think as long as you eat well and focus on performance-based goals, the extra weight will come off naturally, which seems to be what your plan is, so good luck! 🙂

  2. Talking about a problem is the first step in owning up to it and potentially overcoming it. As a student, I wouldn’t worry too much about 5 pounds. Your first goal is to graduate, not win a half-marathon, right? It may slow your running a a bit, but you need to focus on healthy, and enjoy nuggets now and then 😉

    I’ll confess that I’ve slept in and missed about 1 run a week for the past 3 weeks. Sleep is just so nice!

  3. Yeah, I wouldn’t stress too much, just do what you can – and do NOT totally cut out you fun foods! I honestly think that is the express route to failure!

    As for me, we’ve had enough other stuff around the house that I haven’t had a healthy dessert smoothie since we got back from vacation 🙂

  4. Ugh, hate the scale but understanding how you are seeing and feeling the effects of a few extra pounds. I used to love McDonald’s chicken nuggets though! Just realizing how much better I feel when I eat a balanced and pretty clean diet keeps me in check but a runner’s appetite can certainly play with your cravings and ability to eat a ton!

  5. Cleaning up your diet a bit sounds good but make sure to still leave room for treats! I also find that when I eat enough good food I’m less likely to reach for the junk. Maybe you will get a better schedule next semester and won’t have to take classes during meal times:)

    • I used to try and sneak in food for my classes but I need way more than a garnola bar! I wish there were more accessible healthy treats – buying a small pack of nuts at the bookstore is like $5 for a teeny tiny bag but a bag of chips larger is cheaper! ):

  6. I’m relying on too many fruits, nuts, & coconut cream/milk while on the whole30. While the program may not be designed to lose weight, I should be given that I’m on the program and running a few times a week and strength training five times a week. I remember going through my nut phase on the whole30 before. I want to be down about five pounds from where I am now heading into a conference in Sept. where I want to enjoy food, friends, and drinks (that’s my balance). The trick for me will be not to sabotage myself with a tasty cupcake along the way.

  7. I know how you feel. I am the kid that is always eating, too, and back before I was diagnosed it got me into trouble (ie, chunkier than I would have liked). Sometimes we do need to rein it in, but think about what you might be actually needing–with all of this training and running, why not bring in some things like jicama or cucumber or carrot that are water dense and will help you hydrate? That will help with the noms while you aren’t in class. But oh, I know what you mean! It doesn’t matter that I’m skinny, that feeling of being out of control bugs everyone!

    • I should get more carrots! I used to love munching on carrots, they have that perfect crunch that chips have! Thanks for reminding me girl 🙂

  8. I’m ALWAYS HUNGRY. Always. No matter what I eat, drink, anything… I’m trying to learn to embrace a little hunger though, but it’s hard… especially at night!

  9. chicken nuggets *drooling* although whenever I eat fast food my gut hate me for a bit. Since I’m mostly eating at home right now – my tummy has been feeling better. But when I’m traveling – its fast food and then my tummy goes bad.

    I don’t know how much I weigh….

    • yeah, it’s so much easier getting fast food when I’m at school and at the moment it tastes soooo good then I’ll regret it later ):

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